OH MY GOD SO MUCH STRESS!

This week has been one the most busiest week of my life; I have had a huge amount of work to give in to every single teacher I have. I have done more and more research for my EE and universities. I have done the dance lessons who took place for 2 hours right after school... and much more. This week has been very tiring for me, and thinking of the Talent Show just makes me want to cry.

We are running out of time and things aren't going as we planned at all. First of all, the tickets sale isn't going well, so I am gonna have to step into that and "show them how to sell tickets" (which is apparently a very hard job to do). We've only seen two acts so far, out of the ten. Today, me Georgia and Richard went around the school asking the acts when and where they were willing to show us their act.
We got that sorted now, most of them will come Tuesday showing us what they've done. Our Bloody mIST piece is fine; we had a run-through Wednesday afternoon and we had 2 audience members to watch it and to give us feedback.  They seemed to enjoy it a lot, although at the end, one of them said:" I really wasn't expecting something like this, I thought what you did in theatre were pieces such as a Doll's House," (which is a very naturalistic piece and she saw our Doll's HOuse performance). We explained to them our piece, and since this reaction might come from a lot of people, especially our audience we will have on Thursday evening, we decided to create a little guide, a prospectus so they will know everything out it; who we are inspired by, what ideas we are using, AND we shall tell them this isn't the only thing we do in drama (they might think all we do in drama is have fun and mess around) etc.

Today, we discussed the issues of the Talent Show, what has been done and what hasn't, and what should be fixed if necessary. If think we are all stressed about this, well I know I am, and I realize how hard it is to be responsible and running this production. You have to look out for everything and make sure EVERYTHING is alright, not just your self! By the way, this is a nice link with Brecht's work, that one stage you are working as an ensemble and your acting isn't supposed to affect just yourself, but it affected the whole performance if there is no proper communication. Speaking of Brecht, we showed Georgia our little devised work we had done while she was away, "A Brecht's House" as we called it. We struggled a little bit to get one with; instead of thinking what the message was and get on with improvising the scene, we argued a lot with the ideas. We weren't agreeing at all who the one was in this scene who had the power and control. At the end though, we went with the idea of Nora gaining power and Torvald submitted (if that's the correct word). Our second scene was the one we struggled the most with, we had to swap around actors several times for this. (more details will be found in my journal)

Also, I know no one was there for the tickets on Friday afternoon, and if you could please stop telling me off for it I would appreciate it; I do know I am responsible for the CAS students for the tickets sale and also for the guides, and I did put specific people responsible for the sale. I had provided them a timetable for each of them and told them "If you have any problems, please come and speak to me about it". Someone told me she couldn't make it that day and I had to re arrange the people responsible for it. No one was there as it seemed, and none of them told they they had to go, I had to go up to them asking them "Why weren't you there on Friday selling?" So yes, I was quite shocked about this!
We are Year 12 students now and we can no longer push the blame away to someone else; younger students are supposed to look up to us and we have to set a good example. I have been creating problems and issues, I am aware of that but instead of just sitting there wining about it am I trying to fix them, so you can either chose to support me or just be quiet.
So I do apologize for this misunderstanding that happened on Friday and I am not going to play the "it wasn't me it was her!" game, and I will take full responsibility of the consequences so it seems.
However! I have made up for this, I have talked to the Victor Hugo people about the Talent Show, the German School and my french friends,and  lots of them seem really interested in this Talent Show. I have about 10-15 ish people (or more) who will be buying tickets on Tuesday after school. YES I WILL BE THERE! Also, people wanted to book their tickets or buy them on the night, the booking will be possible but I will only be doing this with the people I know really well.

I am sure we can learn a lot from our lack of responsibility/communication/organization for this Talent Show (which is a good thing!) for the next time, and especially for next year in Year 13! I realize what it feels like to have all of this pressure on your shoulders and everyone is relying on you! We've made it, with some difficulties of course, but we still made it !
I hope we will be able to put off a great show this Thursday, and I certainly hope students will look back at this saying: "WOW, why didn't I audition for this, it looks so cool, I should have been in it"
Next year another one maybe, I don't know, let's see how it goes for now! But if you do want to put another Talent Show on, DON'T PUT US IN CHARGE OF IT :)